This must be what they mean when they say, “the road will get rough.” I am feeling mentally drained and emotional right now. I don’t think that people give athletes enough credit. To get up every day and train, stay focused, and stick with your goal is very hard. Physical training has an emotional connection that goes right along with it. That is why God invented sports psychologists!
This morning was very hard for me. It was hard getting out of bed, it was hard getting in the car, it was hard putting on my mP3 player, and the workout seemed extra long. I could not even muster up enough strength to do any cardio. My weight training session lasted for 45 minutes. (I am trying a new routine) and it was tough! On top of that, I decided to make some waffles when I got home and they ended up burning! So although I do have victory and take pride in the fact that I can continue when I want to find every excuse not to, I am mentally tired. Yesterday, I even thought about giving up this goal of getting ready for this competition. Sometimes I feel like I am just wandering out there trying different approaches to training but not really sticking to any one plan. But because I am not a quitter, I have to find some kind of way to encourage myself. No one is going to wake me up everyday and drag me to the gym or tell me not to eat that junk food. I don’t have anyone that gets up with me in the morning, pushes me in the gym or fixes all of my clean meals for the week and helps me do that on top of all the other duties I have every day.
I’m always the encourager but sometimes I need some encouragement. Somehow I have to dig down deep and get up the will and drive to keep going on this journey. Sometimes I wish I could be like everyone else and just have “regular” goals but my mind does not function like that.
I am tired and I don’t know if it is more mental than physical but I have to keep going. I am not going to lie and tell you everything is perfect because it’s not. I am struggling to stick to my goal. Yes, I go to the gym, do my routine, and I eat right (although I still have some work to do in this area). This is the real part of this commitment. But I will never give up. I have to work on a plan to get organized which means coming up with a nutritional plan and getting some sort of coach that will keep me on track.
Now I am off to get ready for work and whatever this week has to offer.
“Perseverance is the hard work you do after you get tired of doing the hard work you already did.”