It’s getting close to that time. When I say “that time” I mean competition prep time. It has taken me quite a while to commit to doing another show. I think about it everyday. I fantasize about the routine I will do, I literally see myself on stage in the condition that I want to be in and winning. I know I can do it but I know the dedication that is required to do my best. I have done it before…I have gone on stage in peak condition and I know the type of training and diet that works for me. I psych myself up mentally, get excited, and then I think about the process.
I think about the restriction, the time commitment, and the disappointment that I faced after the last show. But I am better than that. I can’t give up. I work too hard everyday not to give it another shot. When I look at other competitors, I know I can be just as good and even better than them. I have built a good base and I just need to chisel away. So I decided today that I am going to give it another go. Whatever it takes. I’m not going to think about the obstacles that may get in my way, I’m just going to find a way. This is not about winning a trophy, this about redemption.
If you have something you want to do and you can’t stop thinking about it, then that is a sign that you need to do it. The only thing holding you back is your own fear.